I'm delighted to have become friends with Elle, both via this blog and getting to know her in the real world. It can be hard knowing that she's not having the best of times regarding her health. One thing I find most frustrating is that we are currently under the cosh of an inhumane government… Continue reading Sick Government = Sick Society.
I've tried a few times in this blog to really describe what it feels like to be in my head/body. I thought that was my purpose in writing here, so that other people could experience and understand it. But I have a growing disquieting feeling now that it's actually impossible to let another human being share… Continue reading A Rucksack Full of Stones (Elle)
I feel that the experience of mental illness can be a journey. That's how I see it anyhow, though I totally understand those who feel that it's a static unending affliction they'd rather shake free of…. For me it's a journey, and can be a learning and growing experience. (Though perhaps it's just so painful… Continue reading The Energy Equation (Elle)
Some thoughts about suffering. I love winter boots. I love to spot good boots on other people. They always look solid and comfortable and warm. I was out walking recently when I realised that the back of my heel was starting to rub inside my boot, and this started to colour my thinking. As I… Continue reading A Stone in my Boot (Elle)
Three years ago after coming out of hospital I started to experience the presence of the demon. The demon is sometimes a clear voice in my head, but more often is a hellish noise; a clamour. If you have ever experienced noise that stresses you physically – like an ambulance siren that has made you… Continue reading Demon Voice (Elle)
I've just done a short interview for a local magazine. It's in relation to me doing my show on mental health next month. I thought it might be of interest as some common misconceptions about mental health and comedy come up in it. i've tried to answer as concisely as possible... 1.You’ve been a comedian… Continue reading Delusions Interview. John.
In Elle's last response she spoke about a psychiatrists response to finding out some new information on an attack of psychosis she'd had... I remember his response – part indignant (as if a great party had happened and he hadn’t been invited), part shocked – ‘Well I didn’t know about this!’ This made me think of… Continue reading Treatment (The poor version)
I was so intrigued to read about John going home in the midst of a completely delusional state and carrying on as if nothing was happening. Some thoughts on this soon. But this was exactly what I did after my walk out over the bridge to meet the Devil. Took the bus home and carried… Continue reading Keeping a Lid On Things. Elle
I was in hospital two and a half years ago. Since then I've had a kind of grimy time of it. I've been low and flat and I haven't been looking after myself well. I failed to eat to the point of malnutrition, and then developed TB last year. A terrible stasis kind of crept in… Continue reading Certainty. Elle
One morning I heard a demonic voice coming from my belly – 'I am the Devil'. I simply carried on, perhaps slightly perturbed. The next morning I heard the same voice from the other side of the room – 'Do not challenge me'… With utter certainty, in that moment, I knew three things – (1)… Continue reading Onset of Psychosis (ii) Elle